Saturday, July 26, 2008

It all started out innocent and then……I got a Tattoo!!!

I was driving with Tommy a week ago to support him as he got a tattoo. On the way there he said, “Hey you’re going to get one to aren’t you.” I said, “Hell no I hate tattoos and I never want to get one (infamous last words).  So we get there and we’re in line to make an appointment for Tommy. I start looking at the tattoos all over the walls and I see this cross tat and I’m thinking to myself, “that would be cool to have a cross tat with AGAPE through it. I’m thinking about it and after a few minutes I have it in my mind that I want a tattoo. By this time Tommy comes back over and is like, “hey I made an appointment for you and me later today (he must have read my mind).  But the problem was I had to work. So we made an appointment for Friday. All week I was looking at crosses on the internet even had my boys draw a few crosses everyone was into me getting a tattoo, including me. Friday comes and I’m nervous not because I don’t want a tat but because everyone told me it was going to hurt. I get to the tattoo place early because I’m nervous. I’m sitting and sitting about an hour and half later the guy (matt) was like, “Ready darling?”  Ohh shit ohhh shit here it comes…Matt says I’m just going to start with this one line at the bottom.  And….nothing it didn’t hurt. I remember saying, “Is that it…let me go to sleep.” So I sit in the chair with my head in my hand.  Now I’m not saying it was the most pleasant experience but it didn’t hurt like what I was told. The only time it really hurt was on the spin and the pain only last about ten seconds and then it’s over. I would get another one in a heart beat.  I love my tat and yes in 50 years from now I’ll still love it. It represents to me as a symbol of love.

 Agapē is one of several Greek words translated into English as love. The word has been used in different ways by a variety of contemporary and ancient sources, including Biblical authors. Many have thought that this word represents divine, unconditional, self-sacrificing, active, volitional, and thoughtful love. Greek philosophers at the time of Plato and other ancient authors have used forms of the word to denote love of a spouse or family, or affection for a particular activity, in contrast to philia—an affection that could denote either brotherhood or generally non-sexual affection, and eros, an affection of a sexual nature. The term ‘agape’ is rarely used in ancient manuscripts, but was used by the early Christians to refer to the self-sacrificing love of God for humanity, which they were committed to reciprocating and practicing towards God and among one another (also see kenosis).

So yes I have a tattoo of a cross with AGAPE through the bottom. The tattoo is between my shoulder blades. If I wear a t-shirt you can’t see it.

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Lie

I wrote this poem the same night I wrote the one about Prince Charming.  So the LIE in the poem could be any lie anyone is struggling with. It’s a personal thing.  Enjoy…

 

 

I’ve been lying to myself for so many years

I’ve lied to God (please forgive me)

I lied to my family and friends

This lie that has taken my heart and eaten my soul

My every thought about this lie consumes me

I am left with nothing but bone it has shredded away my flesh and drunken my blood

Evil is winning

My mind overlaps with torment and is isolated by the truth

This lie is by no means justifiable but I will give into its justifications

By letting go of who I am, what I stand for, I AM the lie

I am trapped by its deception and charmed by its beauty

It will undertake me to who I thought I was and never will be again

 

I’ve been lying to myself for so many years please forgive me…….

 

 

 

 

 

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Friday, July 11, 2008

Prince Charming

I wrote this poem when I got mad at the guy I’ve been talking to…..so I was a little in the bitter barnJ. 

 

 

I don’t believe in Prince Charming…….

 

 

 

I don’t believe in fairly tales and happy ever afters. 

I don’t believe in gentlemen that open doors and scoot back chairs.

I don’t believe men have moral values and will commitment

I don’t believe in letting in your emotions go and always holding back

I don’t believe in happiness and blissful memories

I don’t believe in wedding days and being dressed in white

I don’t believe in being financially stable and showing respect

I don’t believe in honesty and telling me the truth

I don’t believe in dignity and integrity that’s a bunch of BS

I don’t believe in sincerity and spending forever together

 

 

I don’t believe in Prince Charming…………

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