AGAPE

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not
walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either.
Just pretty much leave me the hell alone.

2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken
fan belt and leaky tire.

3. It’s always darkest before dawn. So if you’re going
to steal your neighbors’ newspaper, that’s the time to do it.

4. Don’t be irreplaceable. If you can’t be replaced, you
can’t be promoted.

5. Always remember that you’re unique. Just like
everyone else.

6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

7. If you think nobody cares if you’re alive, try
missing a couple of car payments.

8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile
in their shoes.  That way, when you criticize them, you’re a mile away
and you have their shoes.

9. If at first you don’t succeed, skydiving is not for
you.

10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach
him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person
again, it was probably worth it.

12. If you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember
anything.

13. Some days you’re the bug; some days you’re the
windshield.

14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it
in half and put it back in your pocket.

16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.

17. Duct tape is like ‘The Force’. It has a light side
and a dark side, and it holds the universe together.

18. There are two theories to arguing with women.
Neither one works.

19. Generally speaking, you are aren’t learning much
when your lips are moving.

20. Experience is something you don’t get, until just
after you need it.

21. Never miss a good chance to shut up.

And last but not least…

22. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill
and a laxative on
the same night.

 First, my job is going crazy…that state changed our model i.e. the way the organization runs. I found out the state and federal had a contract the state didn’t live up to it’s end-long story it’s has to deal with Medicaid benefits blah blah…so now our entire organization has to change the way things are run. Stressful doesn’t even begin to describe the pressure we are under to implement this change by July 1^st. My job title will no longer be case manager it will be Strengths Assessment EBP.  The case managers are divided into two groups; one group will be TCM/Employment specialist the other group, CPST/Strengths Assessment EBP i.e. intensive case management. I, with no choice was put into CPST-SA/EBP. Needless to say, I’m under some pressure.

Moving on, I not sure if I want to be a Social Worker anymore and no it’s not the change at my job. I’ve been thinking about this for about a month. I don’t know what I want to do. I thought I had my life planed out, I was so directed but now I’m not so sure. I don’t know if I want to do mission work overseas or continue want I’m doing, go back to school and get my master’s. I have no clue and I’ve been very restless lately pondering over this subject. I’ll just keep praying.

Misjudging me. My sister told me a few weeks ago that I could be a drug dealer b/c of the way I talk (I work with JO). Last week my friend thought he was talking above me, when in actuality he was talking beneath me and it was driving me crazy. Several people believe just b/c I’m flaky I must be stupid and then when I know something it’s a shock. So I’ve been consciously watching the way I talk. I’m tired of people thinking I’m stupid just b/c of the way I talk or b/c of my flaky personality. Maybe I should be more serious and poised…ummmm…..

I’ve been more than bussy this week. With working about 60hrs, spending time with friends, and going through things b/c of moving, has left me exhausted. I’m waiting to move and the thought of moving makes me tired. I should be going this week to look at the apartment I’m going to be moving into to. I’m excited and overwhelmed.

I’ll try to write more often but no promises.

Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.-AU