AGAPE

OK OK ….I know I’ve been bad lately and not updating my  blog. And I’m not going to give a list a excuses why I haven’t. I just haven’t. So sorry. I have 20 mintues to write so here I go.

 My new job is going great(knock on wood). I busy pretty much all day. It depends on my client’s. I try to start early so I can leave work early. Good example I started yesterday at 8 work my ass off until about 2 then I went home at 2:45..and yes we can do that. All I have to do is bill 5.25 hrs a day and my day is over.  Now you understand why I start early. Let’s see questions I get asked about my job.  Have a ever been scared? YES one of my client’s wanted to to come over to his apartment b/c he had never had a girl over before…ummm…scary..Did I go over yes…BUT I made sure one of my co-workers # was in my cell ready to be dialed and I tired not to go into his apartment all the way….just stood in the doorway. I had another client cussed me out in my car under his breathe…I took him to his doc. appt. and the doctor wouldn’t let me take him home for MY saftey….so yeah I’ve had some interesting experiences. I think I will probably get pepper spray. I also I two guys that I work with that are always watching out for me…so that’s nice. I get hit on pretty much everyday by a different client. This is the first time in my life that I DO NOT want to be attrative to men…but some how it’s happening. How do I handel these men?….I tell them if they fucking touch me I’ll break every bone in their body…Can you tell them that? HELL YES we can and using those words. With this population you can’t be suttle…you have to be VERY blunt…trust me after so many clients start hitting on you..I promise you would say the same thing. I cuss more b/c of this job…I know I know…it’s hard not to working with this population. Do I cuss at client’s on my case load? I try not to…I’ve been very rude though…you have to be. This job had opened my eyes..I’ve been so blind. I can’t even explain what it’s like to work with mentally ill. Everyday is different. I never know what I’m going to be getting myself into everyday I work. I have learned alot about different agencies in Wichita..which should help me in the future. I network like crazy. I talk to eveyone at my job and different agiences. I believe this will help me in the long run. I always keep my boss updated on anything that happens on my caseload..communication is the key. My time is almost up…I’m going to Emporia tonight for a two day training for case managment.  But if anyone needs me feel free to still call…get me out of a boring training….. until next time.

 

 ps..sorry about spelling… I was writting fast..

 

“Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes
off your goals.” Henry Ford

 

 

I thought this was good… and I believe it can work both ways (men
and
>women).
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>
>If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
>If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
>Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
>Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
>Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant
to be.
>Slower is better.
>Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly
happy.
>If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you
deserve
>then heck no, you can’t “be friends.”
>A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
>Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he
probably
>is.
>Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at
>yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
>The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
>Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different
women.
>He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you
any
>differently?
>Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
>Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
>If something bothers you, speak up.
>Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
>You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
>Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if
he has
>more education or in a better job.
>Do not make him into a quasi-god.
>He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
>Never let a man define who you are.
>Never borrow someone else’s man.
>Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
>A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
>All men are NOT dogs.
>You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a
two-way
>street.
>You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute
about
>baggage.
>Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
>You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship
consists
>of two WHOLE individuals.
>Look for someone complimentary…not supplementary.
>Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
>Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are,
and
>your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
>Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you
need.
>Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
>
>
>.
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>BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT…………..

 I found this and thought it was neat…it will make you feel good… 

 

READ THIS WHOLE THING. IT’S SO DANG TRUE*

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

 12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won’t get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

I’m sick…ohh yes I’m sick AGAIN!!!! I’ve been home every night this week so I’ve had the time to write, I just been so sick. I think the reason I’m getting sick more often is because of where I work. Most of the members have poor hygiene and I think being around them has caused me to get sick. I started taking Elsberry juice and of course victim C. I tried everything else this is my last resort. I have gotten laryngitis because I this cold and I think that is the most frustrating part. I didn’t realize how much I talked until I lost my voice It sucks not being able to talk to anyone; I feel excluded but I can’t help it, it hurts to much to talk. I’m trying to stay away from everyone-not because I want to but because I need to. I don’t want to talk to anyone because it hurts so bad and I don’t want anyone to catch what I have. I’m also tired 24/7. I could wake up and go right back to bed. I’m excited that tomorrow I can sleep in. I was supposed to go up to KC and see my sister this weekend for her birthday but I just couldn’t do it. But the most positive thing that has come out of all this is….everyone has been so nice and understanding to me….I appreciate it. I would ask that everyone please please please say a prayer for me that I get better…thanks I’m tired…of course so I’m going to go to bed.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY—SIS and AMY !!!!!!!

 

“Happiness is not achieved by the conscious pursuit of happiness; it is generally the by-product of other activities.”— Aldous Huxley