Anger
I have been so busy with my new job; the transition is a little hard but I’m doing it. My new job is going fine (knock of wood); everyone is nice. I ask some many questions I feel like I’m a pest sometimes but my co-workers seem to be understanding. I’ve met four out of the five people that our on my caseload and the fifth one I meet tomorrow. I’m going to ask my boss tomorrow if I can get five more members; I only have a few appointments for next week and I need more. I hope that I like this job. I’ll try to write more but I’ve become so busy. And when I get home I’m so tired but my loyal readers don’t give up on me I’ll keep writing, but it probably be so often.
Anywho, moving on; I’m very angry right now. I think there are different phases a person goes through when they get angry. I mean I’m pissed off but I’m at the last phase I’m I just don’t give a F*** anymore; and that’s sad. Let me take you down the road of phases of being pissed off. First is shock, I was in complete shock didn’t know what to say, I just stood there, “okay” is the only think that came out of my mouth. Second is realization, I just realized what happened and I was like “what the hell.” I realized that this is going to piss me off. Third is anger, I thought about what happened and now I’m very angry and I can feel it racing throughout my body. Third is sad, I was so angry that became sad and cried. My emotions were going out of wack and I didn’t know what to do. Forth is venting, I called up a friend and vented; telling her what had happened and getting the support I needed. Fifth and final phase don’t give an F***. This is where I am at right now. What happen has happen there is no going back, the person can’t redo what’s been done. I guess the final stage would be resolution. I need to talk the people (in this case persons) that have pissed me off. I’m hurt still and I don’t feel that it’s right that people don’t take my feelings into consideration. I know this may sound self absorbed or self-centered but I’m sick of always taking other’s feelings into consideration and no one taking mine. I hope that everything gets resolved and I hate feeling this way but there is nothing I can do about it at this time.
I’m going up to KC this weekend for Race for the Cure. I probably wont be writing anything till Monday. I hope everyone has a great weekendJ
Some people think that all the world should share their misfortunes, though they do not share in the sufferings of any one else–Al Pointcelot
