AGAPE

So I started to write this blog yesterday and now I’m going to finish is today….

Saturday-I love rainy days….well it was raining early this morning which has now caused me to have a lazy day. Let’s see I woke up at
7am …I know I know 7 is early but I just woke up and my mind started going.  I was too tired to actually get out of bed .Then after about an hour I decided to get up and go work out. I love to work out but I just hate the time it takes.  But I always think to myself, “Marianna think of all the good looking men that will be there and that makes everything betterJ” … I’m sure none of them would be worth dating, but there is some good eye candy. Anywho, after I got back from working out; I came home took a shower and drank some coffee. Then honestly I didn’t do anything until I went to church at 5pm. Ohhh…ohhhh I did do something I did laundry…hey that’s something. After I got back from church Scott (just a friend) came over and we ate pizza and watch Scary Movie 4.  Scary Movie 4 wasn’t that good; it wasn’t as funny as the previous 3. Then Jose (another “just friend”) called and he wanted me to come out to the Vagabond with him and Bonny. Jose knows that I love going to the Vagabond and I can never say noJ  so of course I went to the Vagabond for about hour and half.  I love when Jose, Bonny and I go out because even though we have different views we still respect each other’s opinion and I don’t feel judged. Finally, I came home and went to bed.

Sunday-Today was another rainy day. I always sleep better when it rains. Let’s see I slept in till about 9am…better than yesterday. I got my lazy butt out of bed and worked out. There were no cute men this morning; I was disappointed. Then came home and did the usual routine. Jose came over and used my computer to write his blog.  I’m supposed to go to adoration today for Kimmy’s birthday and then hang out with some friends….that’s my plans for the rest of the day.

I would like to give a shout out to Kimmy B and Steffanie they just had the two most gorgeous babies that I have seenJ And I would like wish Kimmy a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

“How far that little candle throws his beams! So shines a good deed in 

a weary world.”---- William Shakespeare

I can’t believe I’m writing for the second time this week….YEA!!!

One of my co-workers told me the story of what happened to him yesterday and it’s so funny/gross I thought I would share it with you all. He takes one of his members (on his case load) walking in the mall for exercise. I guess she had to go to the bathroom (number 2) and they were almost to the bathroom when she….went in her pants in the mall. After she finished because she couldn’t hold it she goes into the bathroom to clean up. He still has to take her back to her apartment (in his car…gross) and by this time she is shaken up; who wouldn’t be. So the nice guy that he is waited around to make sure she would be okay. Being shaken up she doesn’t think and walks from her bedroom to the bathroom (he is sitting on the couch in the living room waiting for her) butt naked…..ohhh yes….and she isn’t a little size girl…she has some meat on her bones. By this time he told me he was thinking…”I’ve got to be tough I’ve got to be tough….I can do this…”  But it gets better…..he offers to go buy her some new underwear(obviously she needs it)  and she said I’ll show you what kind I wear…from a dirty pill of clothes on her floor she lifts up a pair of underwear that had poop and blood mixed together. At this time I do believed he gagged. He left soon after that…..  So next time you feel that your job sucks…just remember this story….

“Never look down on anybody unless you’re helping him up.”

- Jesse Jackson

I know it’s been along time and I know that I keep saying I’ll write but then I never do. And there is a reason…I haven’t been inspired to write anything…spectacular… spectacular….but then last night it came to me I don’t have to write anything spectacular…spectacular…I can just write about anything….I really don’t have to be inspired…I can just write about my everyday life J  soo I’m going to catch you all up on what’s been going on….

My job is going good so far (knock on wood) everyone seems to be really nice. I’m up to eight people on my case load. I’m not extremely busy yet with only eight members but I’m only half way there. Most my co-workers are in there twenties so that makes it nice because we all have things in common.  The guy I share my computer with (married so no ideas) we have a little contest going on…he thinks he’s going to bill more hours then me (we have to bill five hours a day with our members) but he is mistaken I’ll beat him when I get a full case loadJ One of the things I like about the job is the billing part. I could not stand sitting behind a desk for eight hours a day…it’s just not for me. With this job I have to get out in the community, which I think I will really like. For example, one of my member’s goals is to learn social skills so I’ll take her out to shopping centers or fast food restaurants so she can learn to socialize.  Another member needs help with budgeting and likes to read the newspaper so I cut out articles about budgeting and I’ll make a plan to help her. I’ll do things like that I guess just help them out with everyday life skills.  I’m actually learning a lot form them as well. One of the members (not on my case load) told me a joke and I think it’s so funny I’m sure most of you have already heard it but just in case…What did the bathtub say to the toilet?….think about it……are you thinking ….ok ok….”You might get more ass than me but I don’t take shit from no one” I think that is so funny….ok maybe I’m the only oneJ   

Last weekend I went to KC to do the Race for the Cure, it almost killed meJ It wasn’t that bad I did come back with two blisters on my feet. There were like 15,000 people there is was so awesome and there were more men than I thought there would be.  I really enjoyed it; I would probably do it again. Plus, I got to spend some quality time with my most fabulous sister and AmyJ

Until next time……

The greatest love is the love you have to find inside yourself—AU

I have been so busy with my new job; the transition is a little hard but I’m doing it. My new job is going fine (knock of wood); everyone is nice. I ask some many questions I feel like I’m a pest sometimes but my co-workers seem to be understanding. I’ve met four out of the five people that our on my caseload and the fifth one I meet tomorrow. I’m going to ask my boss tomorrow if I can get five more members; I only have a few appointments for next week and I need more. I hope that I like this job. I’ll try to write more but I’ve become so busy. And when I get home I’m so tired but my loyal readers don’t give up on me I’ll keep writing, but it probably be so often.

Anywho, moving on; I’m very angry right now. I think there are different phases a person goes through when they get angry.  I mean I’m pissed off but I’m at the last phase I’m I just don’t give a F*** anymore; and that’s sad. Let me take you down the road of phases of being pissed off. First is shock, I was in complete shock didn’t know what to say, I just stood there, “okay” is the only think that came out of my mouth. Second is realization, I just realized what happened and I was like “what the hell.” I realized that this is going to piss me off. Third is anger, I thought about what happened and now I’m very angry and I can feel it racing throughout my body. Third is sad, I was so angry that became sad and cried. My emotions were going out of wack and I didn’t know what to do. Forth is venting, I called up a friend and vented; telling her what had happened and getting the support I needed. Fifth and final phase don’t give an F***. This is where I am at right now. What happen has happen there is no going back, the person can’t redo what’s been done. I guess the final stage would be resolution. I need to talk the people (in this case persons) that have pissed me off. I’m hurt still and I don’t feel that it’s right that people don’t take my feelings into consideration. I know this may sound self absorbed or self-centered but I’m sick of always taking other’s feelings into consideration and no one taking mine. I hope that everything gets resolved and I hate feeling this way but there is nothing I can do about it at this time.

I’m going up to KC this weekend for Race for the Cure. I probably wont be writing anything till Monday. I hope everyone has a great weekendJ

Some people think that all the world should share their misfortunes, though they do not share in the sufferings of any one else–Al Pointcelot

It’s been awhile…I have been sooooo busy. I’m going to give all of my good readers a run down of my week…

Let’s see last day I wrote was Tuesday ok so Wednesday I went to work from
8:30 to 4:30. After I got off work went to go get my car tags, since they were due in July and it was Aug. 2. I went home for about an hour to rest…I still had a cold. Then about 6 I went to eat dinner with my friend Kathy and Jose. I left around 8:30 b/c I was so tired from my cold…went home went to bed.

Thursday I worked from 8:30 to 4:30. I went shopping for some clothes that I need…didn’t find anything. Then my brother and Kristi came over and made dinner. After dinner we watched America’s got Talent…I don’t know why I watch that show. Finally around 9:30 I went to bed.

TGIF….Of course I worked from 8:30 to 4:30.  I thought I was going to spend the night by myself. I have been around people 24/7 for over a week and I need some Marianna time…well it didn’t happen. My friend Jose called and wanted to know if I would go Margaritas. I hate Margaritas (it’s loud and crowded, not my scene) so I told Jose no and the fact I have no money. Then alittle while later Jose said we’re going to the Vagabond with Bonny. I love the Vagabond so I was all for going…I would just drink water. I arrived at the Vagabond around 8:15 Bonny, Jose and I talked for awhile.   Then Joe came he is new to our group and he is so awesome he reminds me of a friend I used to have back in 7-9th grade. I wasn’t going to drink anything but water, but then Jose said, “you need a drink, what do you want?” I always feel so guilty when someone buys me a drink but by the time I finish the drink the guilt seems to go awayJ. I finished my first double and then Joe said, “hey looks like you’re thirsty what do you want to drink?” Damm the guilt I feel….of course after that drink the guilt is gone…almostJ. Kimmy, Amy and Alison graced us with their presents for about an hour. Then my friend Brandon called and wanted to know what I was doing…I told him if he came he had to bring his wallet…jokingly. He brought his wallet and bought me a drink….there’s no guilt with BrandonJ…ohhh funny. It was such a great time with my friends. About 1:45 AM it was time to go home and go to bed.

And this is the reason why I’ve been MIA when it came to my blog this week.

I have no inspiring words of wisdom today…I will write again tomorrow. 

Distance makes your heart grow fonder but distance from your spouse gives you heart burn—Rev. Run

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world." 

 --Mahatma Gandhi