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I was at work yesterday and the girls are going to Art Camp at a non-denominational Church. I was thinking about being a Catholic as one of the leaders was speaking about God. As this person was speaking a revolution came to me. I thought to myself people are so harsh and criticize Catholics all the time. Some people might think that Catholics might even be judgmental.  And I have heard from some non Catholics that they don’t understand why we have rules/standards (i.e. Confession, RCIA, pray to Mary and Eucharist). But then it hit me:

1. Every time I go to another church it always confirms why I’m glad to be catholic. There is always something missing at other denomination churches, I think it’s called the EucharistJ.

2. Also, I can’t stand when I go to a non-denominational church and they say, “You’re saved”. The only person that can save you is God. So anyone else that says someone is, “saved,” is speaking bull****. I want to jump up and scream every time I hear some person say, “You’re saved.”  If they’re a religious person then they should know that they cannot save a person and just saying you believe in God isn’t enough.  You have to live your life for God. I mean anyone can say, “I believe in God” and turn right around and kill someone or something. Did that person live their life for God just by saying, “I believe?” I think that is why being a Catholic your pushed (in the right direction) to live your life for God…i.e. adoration, confession, and class to deepen your faith.

3. Also, at catholic churches the Bible is actually read and not just a verse. Then you have a man that has gone through several years of schooling explaining the Bible, not some person that has taken a 6 month crash course on the Bible.

4. I know somewhere in the Bible God tests people all the time-Job comes to mind. And God has such high standards for all of us. I believe that is why being Catholic is hard sometimes, because we have to go by these rules/standards (I hate calling them rules but that is the only word that is coming to mind). I believe that is why people who don’t know about the Catholic faith pre-judge. And some other denominations don’t have high standard like the Catholic faith does. Believing in God isn’t enough and I believe that is where the Catholic Church differs from other denominations. We have to not only believe in God but live our life for God and the Catholic Church I believe tries to teach us that by going to confession and adoration—where you are completely devoting yourself to God and I have been to numerous churches and never have seen such great devotion that the Catholic church has toward God.

Sorry I had to just vent. I have to go to church for my job sometimes and it makes me….ummm “not happy”—that’s the polite way of putting into words how I feel.

 I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings that isn’t Catholic, so please don’t take offense to what I have written, it’s just my belief.

One man’s opinion isn’t the World’s—AU

Ohh… I almost forgot the new address is: 

305 Evergreen,
Wichita KS, 67212 

Join the great company of those who make the barren places of life fruitful with kindness-Helen Keller 

• Thinking about the Y, I lost 385 calories when I worked out today..YEA..I’m getting closer to 500 calories. I keep pushing myself just a little bit every time I workout.  There was this funny thing that happened, not funny as in haha but it was funny to me. A couple of days ago when I was working out I changed the channel to Lifetime, I had to watch Golden Girls:) Anywho, I thought to myself, “someone will change the channel back to sports or news.” But when I went to work out today Lifetime was still on, I thought it was funny.  I have my second session with my trainer next week, hopefully it will be good.
•  I’m starting to pack today. Since I’m starting to move tomorrow, I better start packing. The more I look around my apartment the more things I realize I don’t need. But once I start packing I’m sure it will go fast.
• Since I am moving I don’t know how long it will be when I write another blog, I’m thinking Monday. I’ll be so tired after moving and working this weekend to write, but don’t worry Monday I’ll talk all about my move
• I’m still looking for another job, of course. I must admit, my job is getting a little better (knock on wood). One of my client’s grandmas called me up Sunday and Bitched my ass out, I was pissed. My boss on Monday then bitched her ass out; thank goodness my boss likes me. The lady was way out of line and the stupid thing is the girl is leaving next week….then the families’ wonder why the children are in jail (group home). I can’t wait to go to work tomorrow and see her grandma when the girl has a visit…it should be fun:)

That’s all Foks!! 

The most important thing in communication is hearing what isn’t being said-AU

Don’t just count your years, make your years count—Ernest Meyers

The meaning of things lies not in the things themselves, but in our attitude towards them–Antoine Exupery

Okay so I’m a big dork and when the movie 10 thing I hate about you, came out I wrote down the poem at the end of the movie. I had to stop rewind-fast forward and so for and so on, but about 20 minutes later I got the poem :)…yeah I know….I said I was a dork :)  So here is the poem!!

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car and I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick-even makes me rhythm.

I hate you when you’re always right. I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh even worst when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around and the fact you didn’t call.

But most of all I hate the way I don’t hate you not close, not alittle bit, not even at all. 

I really like that poem……gush I’m a dork 

Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.—T. S. Eliot   

I went to daily mass yesterday and Fr. Jarrod gave the best homily on forgiveness. He said, “To forgive someone is to put the relationship above the offence the person has committed against you.” I thought about what Fr. Jarrod said all last night.  In disagreements/offences with someone, you really have to decide if the friendship is worth saving. I remember when I was younger my friends would always ask me, “is it easier to forgive or to forget?” At first I had a hard time answering this question, but as I got older it was clear that forgetting is harder. It is not hard for me to forgive someone…sometimes. But I have a hard time forgetting what someone has done against me. I was wondering can someone truly forgive someone, can you put the past in the past. Also, if you always remember (the offence) is that completely forgiving that person? I’ve read in a book, that before we can forgive one another we must learn to forgive ourselves first. I believe that sometimes…most of the time…it’s harder to forgive ourselves for things we’ve done. We become so ashamed and so our hearts become clouded with doubt of what we’ve done, we become numb with feelings and it makes it harder for us to move on.  About three years ago it was one of my new year’s resolutions to forgive someone that had hurt me in that past year. This person (which I will not mention and please do not ask me who it is) really had hurt me, my feelings, who I am, who I was, but I had to forgive.  And let me say it was so hard to sallow my pride and forgive to let go of the feels that chained me down from moving past the hurt.  But on the other hand it was one of the most gratifying things that I’ve ever experienced. I felt so free, so content, and so strong knowing that I’m better person than that.  I know now  I can over come so much and be the person that makes me who I am today. 

There is this website that I absolutely love and there is a video about forgiveness that I love, so if any of you would like to take a look, here is the address:

 http://www.interviewwithgod.com/forgiven/

When you bury the hatchet, don’t mark the grave—-AU

Stop judging, that you may not be judged. For as you judge, so will you be judged, and the measure with which you measure will be measured out to you.  Matthw 7:1-3

I went to adoration a couple of days ago and I must say that I love adoration. For those of you who don’t know what adoration is, let me explain.  Most of the time the adoration chaple(room) is right off to the side to the main chaple in the church. Adoration is a place, a room where the eucharist is exposed.Catholics believe the eucharist is the body of Jesus. When someone prays in adoration they are praying right before Jesus. What I love about adoration the most is the quiet simplicity, knowing that Jesus is right before you.  When I’m in adoration I have a peace that comes over me. If I’m having the worst day and then I go to adoration all my troubles seem to fade away. I don’t know I just love going to adoration. When I was leaving(and this was around 11pm) Farther Klein was leaving at the same time and he just walk across the parking lot to his house. I thought to myself,”if I ever get married I would love to live in walking distance of the church, that would be so cool:)” I would advise anyone who hasn’t gone to adoration or hasn’t gone in along time to GO!!!

As the Lord God was creating the world he called upon his archangels. The Lord asked his archangels to help him decide where to put the secret of Life.

“Bury it in the ground,” one angel replied. “Put it in the bottom of the sea,” said another. “Hide it in the mountains,” another suggested.

The Lord replied, “If I see to do any of those only a few will find the secret of Life. The secret of Life must be accessible to everyone”!!

One angel replied, “I know: put it in each man’s heart. Nobody will think to look there.” “Yes,!” said  Lord, “Within each man’s heart.”

And so it was: The secret of Life lies within all of us. —-AU

Ok….so I have alot of random things to tell..so this topic is just going to be a rambling of alot of different things..

1. I had another busy day yestarday..and in my free time I took a nap, this is the reason I didn’t blog yestarday.

2. When I joined the Y I got three free sessions with a personal trainer. Yestarday was my first session. I had to fill out this questionaire. Then she took my blood pressure and fat body percentage…..ohh….that was eye opening.  Let’s just say on the whole fat body percentage(or whatever it’s called) yeah….I’m alittle above average:) But my  trainer has me on this work out program…so I’m hoping it will work out for me. Also, I’m so proud of myself I lost 300 calories when I work out, that’s 50 more than I have been losing. I think I can lose 500 calorie(eveytime I work out) by the end of this year:)

3. I watched the MTV movie awards last night and I wasn’t impressed. First, Jessical Abel hosted, that was a mistake. I don’t think any host should be up for an award and she actually won an award. Then Jim Carey came out like his was God or something with a bunch angels behind him….yeah it was alittle over the top. Also, some band came dressed from Star Wars…I thought that fad was over. Anyways, I didn’t think this year was that good.

4. I’m going up to see my sister in KC. I’m so excited:) Every year my sis and Amy put on a mother/daughter weeked. I’m leaving today around 4 and I have to be back tomorrow around 1pm. I couldn’t find anyone to work for me so I couldn’t get the weekend off(my job sucks). Yeah I’m sad I’m going to miss the weekend, but that’s just how life is, I can’t get everything I want.

5. Since I’ll be tired tomorrow I probably wont blog, but look for something new on Sunday:) Have a great weekend!!!

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core strengh within you that survives all hurt.–  Max Lerner